Every now and then my mind is just *active* and sleep just doesn’t want to happen. Usually it’s just a myriad of thoughts that keep skittering through my mind. It’s not always a single thought or problem. It can be a little frustrating to have my mind so active, especially when my body is tired and wants to go to sleep. Thankfully it doesn’t happen often so it doesn’t interfere with my life. (though there were times when I’d get really frustrated when I was younger and knew I needed sleep in order to get through school.)
Tonight isn’t exactly one of those nights, probably in part to the wine I’ve been enjoying. This is probably one of the few times when I’ve already started drinking before I start having my thoughts go flitting through my mind. It’s a different sort of feeling to have my thoughts trying to meander all over the place and have them dampened by the alcohol. I can’t say that I ever remember this happening before. I am aware that my thoughts are trying to scatter everywhere, but the wine is preventing anything to be processed other than my main focus. It’s rather strange to be able to focus on one task without having other tasks being organized, prioritized, etc. in the background (for lack of a better phrasing.) Today, I’ve had enough to drink that I’m actually a little sleepy and as my thoughts start to scatter the parts that branch off disappear.
When I’ve talked to some other people about their thought processes I’ve realized that a good portion of people have a single train of thought instead of many different thoughts being handled at once. Most of the time I barely notice that I’m thinking of many things at once. It’s not unusual for me to think of a solution to a problem whWile I’m thinking of something totally different.
For tonight, as quickly as the problem was starting, it vanished. I am sure that the several glasses of wine had something to do with it. It’s a good thing because this time I did have a lot on my mind, and the wine has made my body sleepy enough to win out over everything.
That said, I’m heading off to bed.