Well, my daughter is going to be going to Iraq sometime after Aug. She is very happy about being in the Army and serving her country. I’m very proud of her to have made such a commitment at so young an age (only 17). Yes, it is going to be hard knowing that she is going into such an unstable area, but I wouldn’t change what she’s doing just because of my desire for her to be safe.
My supervisor at work just put in her notice today, she just got married a couple of weeks ago and will be moving to Japan with her husband as soon as the Navy ok’s their quarters. We are short-staffed at work and now we’re having to try find a replacement for her (though I may put in for the position, which would mean we’d need someone to take my place instead). I had been hoping to take vacation in May, but it doesn’t look likely now. There was some question before if it would be possible, but this really makes it unlikely.
Meanwhile I’m thoroughly confused about my personal life, wanting to stay and wanting to run at the same time. I love him, but… I don’t think he really knows what he wants with me, or if he really wants anything with me. Sure, I know he likes spending time with me, but I have the feeling I don’t really fit right with what he wants and there’s nothing I can do to change that. I feel a bit like running because of that, because it’s easier to be alone than get hurt by not fitting into someone’s life – knowing that things probably won’t last.
Sometimes it seems like just when I think things are settling down and my life is finally taking shape that something comes along and tosses a wrench in the works.
(P.S. The artwork above is “Snow” by Robert Chang – one of my favorites)