Awake?? Me? *heh*
Sometimes life seems like and endless treadmill of events with no real path to follow and no way to change your course. It especially seems this way when things wind up being a cycle of the same sorts of things happening over and over again. It seems as though if you make different decisions each time that it would tutn the course of events, but rather it winds up being the same. It is puzzling how this can be, unless it is part of our life that we should continue on the same road until we learn some sort of lesson or perhaps it is such that there is no real meaning to the continual turning of the same events.
Sometimes I feel like my life is in stasis, like something caught in a drop of amber rather than something growing and changing. It’s like the saying “the more things change, the more they stay the same”. How do you pull yourself out of the everyday events of life enough to make real changes and see above the everyday happenings of your life, enough to make a real change, take a real chance and gain something of worth, something you will vaule and can hold close for all your days?
Just a little introspection after a night of little sleep, odd dreams and a day of spinning in circles of doing much work but never seeing any progress.